No, seriously, I'm ok with it. I don't mind being 42. My body might mind it, and my mind is going completely. Half the time I can't remember what word I'm looking for, and heaven forbid I should walk into a room expecting to know why I'm going in there. I will sometimes find myself walking to a destination, and I know I USED to know why I was going there. So I just keep travellin', hoping that when I get in that room I'll remember why I was going there. Which is why I frequently walk into a room and just stand there, waiting for a lightning bolt of memory to hit me.
Sometimes they do, sometimes they don't.
Welcome to 42.
But now, at my age, I'm ok with a few things.
I have some standards that not everyone else has - and I'm ok with that. I'm ok with being different, with maybe standing out, maybe blending in depending on who I'm with. I'm ok with it.
I don't have to have the same standards someone else does, even close friends. It's ok if we're different. But I don't feel the urge to change just because of people around me.
I'm ok with it.
There are some things I just can't do anymore.
There are some things I've decided I won't do, and I'm fine with that, too.
So while I know some might think that this life we lead is weird, or crazy, or really really out there - I'm ok with that. I'm not leading a double life. I'm not pretending to be something I'm not.
Sometimes I might put a smile on when I feel sort of blah, but that's because I really don't want to depress anyone around me. I do talk to God about the things that bother me, because I'm not pretending they don't bother me.
I'm ok with all this, because this is where God put me.
Being ourselves is sometimes messy. But then again, being ourselves is sometimes very neat and tidy.
Pretending will not get you anywhere good, and sooner or later it'll backfire on you.
Remember, within the boundaries of God's Word, there is room to be ourselves.
There are things God wants us to be, and to do, and to refrain from. But there's lots of things God either doesn't talk about, or He allows us to have liberty in. Don't be offensive, but be who God made you.